 | Book 4 Chapter 18
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| 1 | draupady uvāca
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| 1 | idaṃ tu me mahad duḥkhaṃ yat pravakṣyāmi bhārata
na me 'bhyasūyā kartavyā duḥkhād etad bravīmy aham
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| 2 | śārdūlair mahiṣaiḥ siṃhair āgāre yudhyase yadā
kaikeyyāḥ prekṣamāṇāyās tadā me kaśmalo bhavet
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| 3 | prekṣāsamutthitā cāpi kaikeyī tāḥ striyo vadet
prekṣya mām anavadyāṅgī kaśmalopahatām iva
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| 4 | snehāt saṃvāsajān manye sūdam eṣā śucismitā
yodhyamānaṃ mahāvīryair imaṃ samanuśocati
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| 5 | kalyāṇarūpā sairandhrī ballavaś cātisundaraḥ
strīṇāṃ ca cittaṃ durjñeyaṃ yuktarūpau ca me matau
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| 6 | sairandhrī priyasaṃvāsān nityaṃ karuṇavedinī
asmin rājakule cemau tulyakālanivāsinau
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| 7 | iti bruvāṇā vākyāni sā māṃ nityam avedayat
krudhyantīṃ māṃ ca saṃprekṣya samaśaṅkata māṃ tvayi
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| 8 | tasyāṃ tathā bruvatyāṃ tu duḥkhaṃ māṃ mahad āviśat
śoke yaudhiṣṭhire magnā nāhaṃ jīvitum utsahe
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| 9 | yaḥ sadevān manuṣyāṃś ca sarpāṃś caikaratho 'jayat
so 'yaṃ rājño virāṭasya kanyānāṃ nartako yuvā
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| 10 | yo 'tarpayad ameyātmā khāṇḍave jātavedasam
so 'ntaḥpuragataḥ pārthaḥ kūpe 'gnir iva saṃvṛtaḥ
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| 11 | yasmād bhayam amitrāṇāṃ sadaiva puruṣarṣabhāt
sa lokaparibhūtena veṣeṇāste dhanaṃjayaḥ
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| 12 | yasya jyātalanirghoṣāt samakampanta śatravaḥ
striyo gītasvanaṃ tasya muditāḥ paryupāsate
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| 13 | kirīṭaṃ sūryasaṃkāśaṃ yasya mūrdhani śobhate
veṇīvikṛtakeśāntaḥ so 'yam adya dhanaṃjayaḥ
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| 14 | yasminn astrāṇi divyāni samastāni mahātmani
ādhāraḥ sarvavidyānāṃ sa dhārayati kuṇḍale
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| 15 | yaṃ sma rājasahasrāṇi tejasāpratimāni vai
samare nātivartante velām iva mahārṇavaḥ
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| 16 | so 'yaṃ rājño virāṭasya kanyānāṃ nartako yuvā
āste veṣapraticchannaḥ kanyānāṃ paricārakaḥ
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| 17 | yasya sma rathaghoṣeṇa samakampata medinī
saparvatavanā bhīma sahasthāvarajaṅgamā
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| 18 | yasmiñ jāte mahābhāge kuntyāḥ śoko vyanaśyata
sa śocayati mām adya bhīmasena tavānujaḥ
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| 19 | bhūṣitaṃ tam alaṃkāraiḥ kuṇḍalaiḥ parihāṭakaiḥ
kambupāṇinam āyāntaṃ dṛṣṭvā sīdati me manaḥ
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| 20 | taṃ veṇīkṛtakeśāntaṃ bhīmadhanvānam arjunam
kanyāparivṛtaṃ dṛṣṭvā bhīma sīdati me manaḥ
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| 21 | yadā hy enaṃ parivṛtaṃ kanyābhir devarūpiṇam
prabhinnam iva mātaṅgaṃ parikīrṇaṃ kareṇubhiḥ
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| 22 | matsyam arthapatiṃ pārthaṃ virāṭaṃ samupasthitam
paśyāmi tūryamadhyasthaṃ diśo naśyanti me tadā
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| 23 | nūnam āryā na jānāti kṛcchraṃ prāptaṃ dhanaṃjayam
ajātaśatruṃ kauravyaṃ magnaṃ durdyūtadevinam
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| 24 | tathā dṛṣṭvā yavīyāṃsaṃ sahadevaṃ yudhāṃ patim
goṣu goveṣam āyāntaṃ pāṇḍubhūtāsmi bhārata
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| 25 | sahadevasya vṛttāni cintayantī punaḥ punaḥ
na vindāmi mahābāho sahadevasya duṣkṛtam
yasminn evaṃvidhaṃ duḥkhaṃ prāpnuyāt satyavikramaḥ
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| 26 | dūyāmi bharataśreṣṭha dṛṣṭvā te bhrātaraṃ priyam
goṣu govṛṣasaṃkāśaṃ matsyenābhiniveśitam
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| 27 | saṃrabdhaṃ raktanepathyaṃ gopālānāṃ purogamam
virāṭam abhinandantam atha me bhavati jvaraḥ
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| 28 | sahadevaṃ hi me vīraṃ nityam āryā praśaṃsati
mahābhijanasaṃpanno vṛttavāñ śīlavān iti
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| 29 | hrīniṣedho madhuravāg dhārmikaś ca priyaś ca me
sa te 'raṇyeṣu boddhavyo yājñaseni kṣapāsv api
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| 30 | taṃ dṛṣṭvā vyāpṛtaṃ goṣu vatsacarmakṣapāśayam
sahadevaṃ yudhāṃ śreṣṭhaṃ kiṃ nu jīvāmi pāṇḍava
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| 31 | yas tribhir nityasaṃpanno rūpeṇāstreṇa medhayā
so 'śvabandho virāṭasya paśya kālasya paryayam
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| 32 | abhyakīryanta vṛndāni dāmagranthim udīkṣatām
vinayantaṃ javenāśvān mahārājasya paśyataḥ
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| 33 | apaśyam enaṃ śrīmantaṃ matsyaṃ bhrājiṣṇum uttamam
virāṭam upatiṣṭhantaṃ darśayantaṃ ca vājinaḥ
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| 34 | kiṃ nu māṃ manyase pārtha sukhiteti paraṃtapa
evaṃ duḥkhaśatāviṣṭā yudhiṣṭhiranimittataḥ
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| 35 | ataḥ prativiśiṣṭāni duḥkhāny anyāni bhārata
vartante mayi kaunteya vakṣyāmi śṛṇu tāny api
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| 36 | yuṣmāsu dhriyamāṇeṣu duḥkhāni vividhāny uta
śoṣayanti śarīraṃ me kiṃ nu duḥkham ataḥ param
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